Multiples. There will be more than one you know, as time goes by.
I think what matters most is what I think about who I am at any given point in time. Am I a person living with MS? Am I a person living with..... arthritis ..... or ABC disease, or just some odd malady the doctors cannot figure out?
What really matters?
Well let's explore this question together for a few minutes.
Do you like baseball? I do. I spend entirely too much time on the couch watching my favorite team and commiserating with the community at large about their future. It becomes obsessive if they happen to be having a good season. Everyone wants to be a winner. Even if it is vicariously experienced.
I have children. A lot of people have them. Some people are without and I have mixed feelings about that. Like, people without kids seem to have money to buy whatever they want. Even though my kids are all grown, I'm still "recovering" from years of making sure we had toilet paper in the house and keeping the refrigerator full. I no longer need to grace the doors of the local big box store, but nonetheless, years have been spent there. Years. And a lot of money.
So now, as I rapidly approach my 60th birthday I think about multiple diagnoses as part of the landscape and I am tempted to say, "I told you so." Eventually everyone has at least one and chances are there will be multiple diagnoses that will need to be contended with. Each one will demand its share of my attention. What is really at stake here?
The challenge is to find the center of everything. The goal is to be balanced, grateful and at peace. Really. It is no secret that I will rise to a pinnacle of life at its prime and then begin a (hopefully) gradual drift into my "golden years." I would like to arrive with a smile on my face, or at least a grin of satisfaction that I am enough. I have done enough. I am whole and mostly ok where it really matters most.
If I have eyes to see it, my will path converge upon a green, verdant forest, that echoes the timelessness of life.
What really matters?